Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Poetry? Me?
"Lost" is a place I have chosen to be.
A spot between "here" and "there."
A little beyond "Yes i can see"
and "that's nice, but I don't care."
It's not a place that i want to stay
but there are times i wish i could
I go there when I can't find my way
Or whenever I'm misunderstood.
So if you see that look in my eye
don't rush me,worry or fret.
I will come back but as hard as i try
I don't want to come back yet.
Labels: dont know why, poetry, Random
Friday, August 27, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
A Sanguine Winter Evening
The cafe was quiet and just how I would have preferred it to be. If you know me, you would know that sitting in a cafe by myself reading a book and listening to music is exactly what I would love to do on a sanguine winter evening. Brad Arnold and Bob Seger sang 'Landing in London' to me while I read 'Love in the time of Cholera'.
After I'd read for an hour she finally arrived. While I sipped on my Hazelnut Latte she spoke of work, family and old school friends whom we'd lost touch with. We bid our goodbyes and promised to keep in touch.
Usually on such calm evenings, realizations strike. One such realization that struck me that day was that I'd changed. I could now make conversation.
Labels: Books, Coffee, Conversations, Good times, Life, Music, Old friends, People, Winter
Saturday, December 12, 2009
The Grief, The Grip and The Void
Today it has been a year since I lost my first dog, Tiger. Hearts heal faster, it is the grieving that takes a while.
"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight" - Kahlil Gibran
Saturday, November 21, 2009
This aint Drudgery!
Wrote this one for the Department Souvenir :)
Writing for a college magazine or souvenir is not an easy task. Most definitely not. Post-compiling, it might not look like a big deal but trust me - with a large set topics beginning to be termed 'cliched, expolited, done-to-death, over-used' the writer is not left with a lot of options. The deadlines, the time constraints, the criticism, the panic, the lack of ideas, the stress. Uff! Most of us end up hesitating because of the fear of being mocked by others or due to doubt in our capabilities. Still there are a few who disregard such thoughts and go ahead with the idea of writing. Ignoring the irony, I can safely say that I am still grappling with where I stand out of the two categories above.
A friend and I were having this conversation the other day about how people never change. We decided there was nothing sudden or unexpected about change. It occurs only at free will and is entirely voluntary.
At the end of the discussion, I realized that such conversations sometimes end up being depressing. I decided that I detest conversations that leave me heavy in the heart. Now, the question. People who don't wonder so much about 'life' - Are we all shallow? Are we scared to think? Or do we fear the answers? Some of us just find it easier to go the Amelie way. Finding joy in small pleasures of life. The sack of grain, The pebbles, The revenge? Ways to expedite happiness, witnessing the delight.
We tend to refuse to face the complexities that we might succumb to. All of us have wished atleast once in our entire life to run away to a place(Himalayas or Hawaii, Oh wait Bahamas is the new 'cool' one!) where we see no familiar faces. A serene isolated place with the ipod playing Dublin Blues or Johnny Cash, a Roman Holiday and a drink to cherish. Perfection! In the heart of heart we all know that life is going to lead us to boredom and dissatisfaction. We continue to wish for it don't we? Dubiously funny!
Tried to put aside my strong inclination to put in one of my favorite songs from Into The Wild but in vain. Bear with me!
A very touching and heart warming story of Christropher McCandless written by Jon Krakauer is portrayed by Sean Penn in the movie Into The Wild. A Tour de force for Sean Penn with the critical acclaim the movie recieved. I was upset and needed to watch something inspring. After much introspection I picked this one. It worked! Got me thinking and inspired me tremendously.
Tired of life like most of us, McCandless decided to venture Into The Wild. Initially he is exhilarated by the isolation, the beauty of nature around and the thrill of living off the land as the spring thaw arrives. He hunts and gathers, and reads books, and keeps a diary of his thoughts. However life becomes harder; his supplies start to run out. Ultimately on his journey of self-discovery, he concludes that true happiness can also be found in sharing, and in the joy of realization seeks to return from the wild to his friends and family.
To his despair McCandless finds himself trapped. Struggling to survive. He has a book to help him to distinguish edible from inedible, but he confuses similar plants and is poisoned. He slowly and painfully starves. In his final hours, he continues to document his process of self-realization and accepts his fate, as he imagines his friends and family for a final time. We know where the real joy of our lives lies. With the people who belong to us and the ones whom we belong to. At the end of the day, each one of us is a mystery to me.
Society - Eddie Vedder(Into The Wild)
It's a mystery to me
We have a greed with which we have agreed
And you think you have to want more than you need
Until you have it all you won't be free
Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me
When you want more than you have
You think you need
And when you think more than you want
Your thoughts begin to bleed
I think I need to find a bigger place
Because when you have more than you think
You need more space
Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me
There's those thinking, more-or-less, less is more
But if less is more, how you keeping score?
Means for every point you make, your level drops
Kinda like you're starting from the top
You can't do that
Society, you're a crazy breed
Hope you're not lonely without me
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me
Society, have mercy on me
Hope you're not angry if I disagree
Society, crazy indeed
Hope you're not lonely without me
Cheers
Nandini
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Glory!
If they ever tell my story, let them say
I walked with giants.
Men rise and fall like the winter wheat
but these names will never die.
Let them say
I lived in the time of Hector
tamer of horses.
Let them say
I lived in the time of Achilles.
Achilles. An embodiment of grief and a warrior everyone idolized.
If Achilles was anything, he was a man who believed his own press releases - Roger Ebert
I'm wondering if we will ever have lines like these to write about.
I lived in the the time of _____
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Tiger Brawl! :D
I gritted my teeth when a teacher in school blasted me for no reason, when I got beatings for back-answering at home, I felt like throwing things away but Come on, The situation here is much much intense.People are not expected to grit their teeth when subjected to public humiliation of being dragged out of cars. But while you face all this humiliation do not be disappointed because in the coming days you will reach limitless heights of popularity with these clippings being shown on news channels at a minimum frequency of five minutes. Yes, it is indeed the Mumbai taxi driver I am talking about!
When all this hue and cry happens around the country, people like you and I sit in front of television screens with our dinner plates and pick our favourite news channels for our share of entertainment. My TV screen suddenly goes hyperactive when Uma bharati comes in with all the vigour she has and says "I will go to Mumbai with a train full of followers from Uttar Pradesh to celebrate Chhath, and I challenge him (Raj Thackeray) to stop me from doing so". Thats the news for the day. We expect better. Being a maharashtrian myself this blatant discrimination saddens me deeply.
Labels: Divisive Politics, Madness, MNS, Raj Thackeray
Friday, January 9, 2009
Now, I wake up with utmost reluctance to go to college. While I manage a quick shower and run to the bus stop, friends SMS regular updates about the bus's whereabouts. This was the first step towards losing that sense of security that I had on the scooter ride with every second person waving out cheerfully at dad. I remember asking him in awe 'Baba, Does half the city know you?' He would shrug and say 'No beta'.
Things change and I've always been taught to adapt to these unprecedented changes! Probably the reason why I can now gulp down piping hot tea scalding my throat. For most of us school and memories are like the perfect dose of nostalgia. We remember the tiniest of details. Usually, the last hour at school used to be History. Ta was most definitely not one of Sister Georgina's favorites. S and I used to wait for times when she'd get into trouble. Sister couldn't bear mischief of any sorts and much later did we realize that she was oversensitive about 'slip of tongues'. Minutes after I was giggling at one of those laughter inducing errors, she came panting down to my seat, looked me in the eye with her big nostrils flared up and walked back. I was like 'Heh? What was that for?' The lady went storming back to the blackboard and wrote in big bold letters ‘A SLIP OF TONGUE IS NOT A MISTAKE AND THE ONE WHO LAUGHS AT IT IS A FOOL'. Ta was just glad that she wasn't mistaken for me.
Ta and I used to get home from school with many a stories to tell. But it wasn't the stories that we looked forward to the most, it was Tiger. He used to jump on us with his heart pounding, running towards us with his tail wagging vigorously. Trust me on this, that is the loveliest feeling in this world. Both of us used to cuddle him up, pamper him, run around the entire house with him. He had a bark for each emotion. The choosiness and greediness with food, the furious tail wagging to greet each member of the family was most endearing. None of us could stop ourselves from feeding him from our plates during lunch. THAT is the puppy dog look one just cannot refuse anything to. I miss feeding him, miss petting his forehead gently pulling his ears back, miss running around the whole place like crazy lunatics. All this frenzy and frolic that he created for all of us always felt like an assurance and his way of saying ‘Hey I’m laughing out loud with you!’ After college when I get back there’s usually nothing that I am excited about.
Love
Nandini